I cry out to God Most High,
to God Who fulfills His Purpose for me.
…..
My heart is steadfast, O God
my heart is steadfast!
I will sing and make melody!
Psalm 57:2,7
Today I am older! June 15 is my birthday and I made it through another year. and today at church, I sang praises to my Father in Heaven that we have survived another year. But most importantly, I praise Him for the blessings of the spirit He has provided me. I lost friends this year, many did not live this year out and I miss them. some were blessings and comfort to me in my struggles and to some, I offered comfort and God’s wisdom in their struggles.
the man who offered me a spiritual place of rest passed to glory and was followed by his sweet wife to soon afterwards. My sweet friend Wendy who struggled with cancer, was taken up just a short while ago. And in between, other dear friends left the world as well. Yet in the midst of it all, God’s Grace and Glory shown the light of Happiness and Peace. And I am still here!
Like David, while he hid in the caves, praised God as he was protected form Saul, in the midst of the turmoil of my soul, I found that God not only protects me from my “enemies”‘ He provided answers to my inquiries. God has indeed made a sad and troubled soul find reason to praise and to make merry in the sight of the LORD! There are many reasons to find fault, but the one reason to rejoice is stronger than any of them. The reason for merriment is the fact that throughout the trials and turmoil of not only my life but the lives of all my family, God has provided.
I have learned this past year that I am selfish, vain and overly proud. I have placed to much importance on who I am rather than on who God has made me. I learned that forgiveness is the true form of love, that mercy is for all just as Christ has offered mercy to me. I have learned to listen to God as the Word teaches me how to live.
But most importantly, I learned that of all the pains and suffering I have gone through in my life, they are nothing to the pains ans suffering others have gone through in just the last year. And those sufferings are nothing to the torment Jesus went through in just one day for our souls. This Year I was humbled before the LORD and nobody made that more abundantly clear than my dear friend Wendy, God bless her sweet soul!
So here I am, now sixty-six years old and still a “child” when it comes to knowing God. And as I go through another year in the life of a disciple, I will watch over the words I say, the Spirit of what is held in my heart and the Testimony of the Spirit that I am guided to share that I will seek god’s truth and the Wisdom of Christ in all I say. The passage from Luke 21:34-36. “But watch yourselves lest your hearts be weighed down with dissipation and drunkenness and cares of this life, and that day comes upon you suddenly like a trap. For it will come upon all who dwell on the face of the whole earth. But stay awake at all times, praying that you may have strength to escape all these things that are going to take place, and to stand before the Son of Man.”
In the year to come, I will hold onto the words of Isaiah 26:3-5, You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you. “Trust in the LORD forever. for the LORD GOD is an everlasting rock. For He humbled the inhabitants of the height, the loft city.” May I never seem lofty or value my insights more than what they are, Words from God to direct my life towards a more perfect life, one that I still have not obtained nor will ever without His Guidance.
I close with saying, “Happy Birthday to me!” but still wish that they never end for I HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO LEARN BEFORE I WILL DEEM MYSELF ACCEPTABLE TO THE SERVICE OF THE LORD!
