My wife got a letter yesterday from someone who was once a friend. It must be pointed out that my wife has been laid up with blood clots in her leg and lungs and we were hoping that this letter would be one to wish her healing. But sadly it was not the case.
It was instead an attack on my Spirituality. To which I felt that it was long overdo to clear the air. I admit that I was accused of “False Teachings” by the church and was removed from the roles. What was hard for me to accept was that it may have been in God’s plan that I leave that church. I don’t like moving about from church to church and I dislike “pew hoppers” but it seems that for a year I was to be one of those.
But now is the time to at least in part be reconciled with those was dismissed me. I am sorry for the grief that I caused them. I regret that we came to “blows” and that our tempers got the best of us. I want to thank you for sending me away, it was the right thing to do even though I could not see it at the time.
Yet I want to say to those who still condemn me, what have I done that is so wrong? Have I loved you or Our God any less than you? Is my fervent desire to serve Christ any less than yours?
I am called to the verse:
In sacrifice and offering you have not delighted, but you have given to me an open ear. Burnt offering and sin offering you have not required. Then I said, “Behold, I have come; in the scroll of the book it is written: I delight to do your will, O my God; your law is within my heart.” Psalm 40:6-7
So I will still do as I believe the Lord Redeemer directs me. And may God bless those who still dispose of me. As Christ has forgiven me, so do I forgive them. As Christ has blessed me, I ask blessings upon them. And may they grow in the Wisdom and Grace of the Spirit of God, may He shower them with His mercy. May the friendship that was from God be restored between us.
And if we meet on the street or in a shop, may our words be kind to each other. And most importantly, may the Wholeness of Christ be with you all the days of your life.
In the meanwhile, My wife is doing well and the doctors are pleased with her overall well being. Tests show that her oxygen levels are high and the clots are not impairing her blood flow. In time she will heal. In this and in all things, good and for ill, I give praise to My God. In Him all things come to pass and for Him all things are to restore my soul. I’m His for the long haul, I know no end in my love for Him.